Yesterday, I went to lab to review my last paper. While I am leaving, my friend said " then see you next wednesday". I feel so awkward cos it is like a signal for the ending. Next wednesday may be our last chance to see each other. I thought I have prepared well for the ending cos I know exactly how it is going to end long time ago. I was still shocked when the tears covered all my face. Tears, once again, proved my inability to control the emotions and once again, revealed the fact that I could take the whole thing easy was a lie. Then, I desperately tried to call mom, but the fate just played another joke on me -- insufficient balance put me away from reaching the one I want to talk most at that moment. I called my girlfriend, though she would have exam the next day, thanks that she still spent time to listen to my craps. 

 

I still remembered, while I left MS, I msged him saying that I felt sad to leave the people I worked with. He told me, it was never fun to say good bye. 

 

Yup, why is it so hard?