金小妹的幸福生活

今天看别人的博客，才发现自己的已经快一年没有更新了。毕业也快一年了，好快！

 

我们这一代也算是生在风口浪尖上，97年小学毕业，碰到亚洲金融危机；08年大学毕业，又碰到全球金融危机。金融行业首当其冲，倒的倒，卖的卖，裁的裁，一片狼藉。不过已经入了这一行也就认了，谁叫我从小到大的梦想就是坐办公室。也算圆梦了。还记得，公司第一次宣布要裁员的时候，我们一家人在家备考CFA。当时虽然嘴巴上说笑着，心里还觉得不可能裁到新加坡。结果刚一回去，就看到身边到处都是人事变动。从那时起，我才真正感觉到了金融危机。佩服朋友的勇气，放弃高薪，追求自己的梦想。也佩服朋友在面对挫折时的乐观和坚强！

 

大老板是个澳大利亚人，酷爱旅游，他的人生也是起起伏伏，颇有传奇色彩。以前是做Commodity Trading的，几经金融危机，被裁过几次。每次被裁，他就去旅行（澳大利亚人的心态就是好），在加入公司之前，他才旅行了整整一年，到现在为止他已经去过160多个国家，他也就34岁的样子，整个地球都要走遍了。马上又要去蒙古，不过这次是他的蜜月旅行。很想看一下他的护照，花花绿绿的，肯定颇为壮观。他说，还有一个很想去的地方就是西藏。在他的inspire之下，我也决定今年要到处走走。

1。3月初去了bintan

2。5月去曼谷和柬埔寨

3。如果父母要旅行，7月或8月可能会回国陪他们到西藏或者新疆（待定）

4。12月去澳大利亚

 

和同事相处的不错，大家更像是朋友。可能因为大家年龄相仿，又都才进公司不久，有很多共同话题。有人说是因为大老板在选人的时候，在选和自己像的人，所以大家的脾性比较能相容。队伍里面男多女少，我又是年龄偏小的，所以也颇受爱护。不管怎样在一起总是缘分。

 

这段时间老爱冒粗话，让我的同事惊叹不已。回忆起来，学会粗话还是因为最后一年和某人一起学习的时候，天天耳渲目染。当时我硬是一句没说，他还奇怪我竟然没有被影响到。后来我们不怎么见面了，反而粗话连连，原来影响力是可以有那么长的迟后效应。女孩子讲粗话总是不好的，所以我决定戒了。

 

偶尔泡泡小酒吧，酒量不好，以前一喝就面红耳赤的，现在慢慢喝还是可以喝几杯了（加冰，加果汁）。喜欢上次去的City space/new asian bar，在Swisstol hotel的顶层，70楼，可以欣赏到新加坡最好的夜景。做singapore flyer看夜景，还不如花20多块钱买杯酒，在舒服的沙发上坐上一夜，还有音乐可以听。

 

和朋友窝居在小岛东部，上下班要一个小时，很是头痛。不过这里环境优美，设施齐全，被来过的朋友们称为“豪宅“，心里也很满足了。现在家有美犬一只，可爱非凡，给家里增添了无穷乐趣。还有钢琴一架，有时小弹一下，也算不枉费了小时候交的学费。

 

这一年，还是变了些许，悟了些许，清醒了些许，尝试了些许......想换一个有刘海的发型~~~~~~

 

Yesterday, I went to lab to review my last paper. While I am leaving, my friend said " then see you next wednesday". I feel so awkward cos it is like a signal for the ending. Next wednesday may be our last chance to see each other. I thought I have prepared well for the ending cos I know exactly how it is going to end long time ago. I was still shocked when the tears covered all my face. Tears, once again, proved my inability to control the emotions and once again, revealed the fact that I could take the whole thing easy was a lie. Then, I desperately tried to call mom, but the fate just played another joke on me -- insufficient balance put me away from reaching the one I want to talk most at that moment. I called my girlfriend, though she would have exam the next day, thanks that she still spent time to listen to my craps. 

 

I still remembered, while I left MS, I msged him saying that I felt sad to leave the people I worked with. He told me, it was never fun to say good bye. 

 

Yup, why is it so hard?  

Bought the ticket, finished the last class of my college and will say good bye to the four-year which is supposed to be the happiest period in the life in three weeks.

What did I get out of it ? Let me leave a blank, think a while and fill it up this summer!

 

When I first came across a saying that love is just the business of one person, I thought it was bullshit, but now I realized it might be true. When to start and when to end can be just decided by one's own willingness. Nobody else can decide, even the loved one, except myself! Maybe it is the end but I believe that we can be life-long friends. Knowing you,  probably is one of the best things that came out of my college life.

 

Today, one friend asked me, if your children ask you how is your college life, how are you going to answer them?  I am a bit speechless.... He was very frank, saying 'I was fucked' (It is hard to believe that this is coming out from someone who will graduate with a first-class honor degree and have got a very good job offer) Of course, he won't tell his children like this but indeed , what am I going to say? I believe in that I did not waste my time here though my life is not very exciting.  I think college is somewhere to transform us from students to mature human beings with independent thought and judgement, ability to handle more complex matters in the life, understanding of personal weakness with ways to improve them and clear life goals or simply knowing what we want (at least knowing where we are going to head in). This is my undertanding of college or something that I want myself to achieve after I graduate. I don't think I have figured out them all now but I think I could have done better if I know this at the begining. Yup, probably this is what I am going to tell my children!

 

More importantly, all the friends I make here will be my life time asset. I am happy to spend this 4-year with all of you!

There are some videos which reflect what happened in Lhasa in March and how the idiot western media reported about it!

Bastards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Thanks for the ppl who made those videos!